FREE WORLD!

2011-11-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

i think i missed it.

2011-11-25T22:45:00.003+08:00

dreamt of grandpa that day (: 那天，阿公来梦中找我（：

finally he came (: 他终于来了（：

saw him rising up to the sky, to a sea of bright light (: 看着他慢慢的升上天，到一片光去（：

he must be happy up there now (: 他现在一定很开心，住在我们送他的屋子，送他的车，送他的摩托车（：

ah gong, please look after us, bless us and take care of all of us from above (: 阿公，请您继续在天上保佑我们这吴大家庭（：

2011-11-12T02:15:00.001+08:00

我很累了。

2011-10-31T23:04:00.002+08:00

this is suffocating. when i'm not of use anymore,just conveniently kick me aside. thanks. seriously. thanks. cause this is what family is for. when they need your help,age is just a number. when you are of no use,then the whole f hierarchy comes back into play. really ridiculously. no,not going to succumb to this cause it has no significance. the only reason why i'm addressing you as such is because you were born before me. nothing more. hates this.

2011-10-25T21:46:00.001+08:00

hate it when people show off their wealth on twitter. and/or facebook. like goddamnit,if your dad get a cheaper japanese car instead,you could have given the money to some charitable cause and earn some karma. TSK.

2011-10-21T22:51:00.003+08:00

need a place to rant. just ranting without bothering who will look, who will care, who will judge. i don't know; university for me? so tired of everything. so hard to motivate myself. every day just passes by. i can't just have 24 hours in a day. i need 48. how am i supposed to catch up with those people? how am i supposed to major in a subject when i didn't even manage to land myself in the 50th percentile? but what else can i do? i can't go without my sleep. those people are spoiling the market. cut some slack. life is not all about grades. isn't that what they have been telling us over and over again? so why are they studying like there's no tomorrow? i really want to give myself a break; just a day of korean dramas and snacks and sleep. but how could i when i'm not doing well in university at all? when the essays come back,and if i get anything lesser than a B, my expectations aren't even that high, i don't know what i'm going to do :\ how hard must i push myself just to reach their insane level of mugging? i can't. i don't want to.

grandchild: ah ma, can you tell me how is university life like?

me: oh! its just mugging brought to a whole new level!

damn,i don't want to paint such boring and lifeless images for my future offsprings. or in fact, to anyone who asked me now. university is supposed to be smooth-sailing. why is everybody f lying?! nothing is going well. JC certainly didn't. university is too early to tell. but am not starting well. nope, not a good start.

damn it, i don't want to graduate prematurely and land myself in some mental hospital. please, no.

2011-06-23T21:33:00.001+08:00

After that night,things just felt different.

2010-12-14T18:19:00.003+08:00

you don't tell people a way to cure their terminal disease after they're lying in their coffins. 何况是你的朋友。

personal taste is quite nice. but rather frustrating to watch. how i wish i can jump into the laptop and help them say whatever they wanted to. but if that can actually happen,no more good dramas =\

going to jog now. is it too late? ohkay bye.

2010-12-12T21:39:00.001+08:00

ohkay so in the end i didnt come back here to talk about the concert. and i kind of don't really want to type about it now cause i'm kind of tired and i thought i had other things i wanted to talk about. maybe not.

2010-12-05T01:42:00.003+08:00

that was mad hotness. mad. dead tired. cant believe im going for 10k run tomorrow,WITHOUT ANY TRAINING. shame on me. anyway. today was awesome. will blog about it tomorrow. its a 'piece' of memory i never wish to forget. like. never. cause its my first kpop concert,and removing all the stupid fangirls and ignorant fools who stoned,it was damnit awesome. blog tomorrow. tomorrow.

ps. god. i didnt know they are so damn good looking real life. like. shit. sizzling hot. im serious. AND I SAW THEM CLOSE. ohkay tomorrow. im tired.

2010-12-02T14:13:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to feel. happy or damn fucked up disappointed. ohkay i guess its pretty obvious.

anyway. i've been watching documentaries - hey damnit,they're interesting - and ghost whisperer and variety shows. and i hope this lifestyle doesn't change. aha. wake up,eat,watch,eat,sleep. nice.

going prawning tonight if its not raining and the weather is nice. cause my brother says prawns in cold water = not good. going to work tomorrow with shubaa. and then off to have the night of my life on saturday with yoseobie doojoonie joonie seunghoism and whoohooo! and wake up early the next day to run 10km. im so dead. i only managed to run 1 round of yishun park yesterday. i wanted to go today but heyy its raining! so i think i'll wake up a little early tomorrow to go jog. ohkay. this is getting to much of a daily routine thing,which is kind of boring and i think i don't want to read these when i reminisce about the past. sobs.

i want to take a plane. a plane somewhere above the clouds. above the atmosphere,mesosphere toposphere - did i get that right - and out into the universe. i want to hide. away from all the hypocrites in the world. all the insensitive people. all the people who don't deserve to be here - i judged. and. yeah. maybe there really is another 'earth' out there,and i'll be so much more better there. on second thought,maybe not. since i'm from another planet,wouldn't i be like an alien that people want to experiment on?! erm.

2010-11-27T22:52:00.001+08:00

and i think i'm damn cool. cause no matter where i go,my blog link will forever work (:

2010-11-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

seriously. but everytime i think about it,ajc is just a place for me to collect embarrassing memories. damn embarrassing. like. i-dont-want-to-live-anymore kind of embarrassing. i think i can come up with a book. to encourage others who suffered those embarrassing moments like i did that whatever happens,everybody is going to forget it and the only person whos going to remember is probably just you. so stop being a loser and be happy. but the thing is. if anybody ever ask me how's aj like 4 years later,i think i'm going to cry. god. the embarrassment.

2010-11-26T00:09:00.003+08:00

ohkay there's this stats thing in blogger so i clicked it for the first time. and wow. i have visitors all the way from ukraine. crazy. probably my blog came up when that person is browsing through random blogs. which i do sometimes. when i'm really bored. and when bigbang hasn't entered my life. and that'll be like. 5 years ago. ohkay.

stupid boy. grrr. if he's hot,this will be a whole lot easier. the thing is:he's not. he's like far from hotness. if hotness is on the surface of earth,this boy is all the way in the core of the earth.

2010-11-25T19:51:00.002+08:00

sometimes its not so much the influence. its more of. personal experience.

2010-11-25T17:36:00.002+08:00

ohkay. so. everybody has moved on to lj,tumblr,onsugar and stuffs. its like the whole world is going to facebook and i'm stuck at friendster. talking about friendster,i logged in that other day and wow. its amazingly amazing. and i just found out that he's a friend of her and its really scary. no?! like your jc friend is friend with your primary school friend and you go: OH HOW DID YOU KNOW EACH OTHER GODDAMNIT. SO NOW,I'M GOING TO GO TO FRIENDSTER AND SHOCK MYSELF SOMEMORE. and the whole i'm going to die at 64 thing is still on my friendster profile. heh.

2010-11-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

ohkay. now,i'm 90% done. and i'm already feeling like a free bird. woohoo!

i finished ghost whisperer season 1 yesterday. i think i was to greedy. downloaded too many shows to prepare for this moment. now i don't know which to watch first. erm.

2010-11-20T23:27:00.001+08:00

ohkay im not even going to try to hide my disappointment. seriously. i thought we were closer than just mere strangers who even bothered to leave a facebook message,however insincere it is,they bothered that 10 seconds of their time to do it.

2010-11-19T16:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! WHAT A SAD AND SUAY AND MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY. DAMN MEMORABLE. EVEN IF I TURN SENILE ONE DAY,I'LL FOREVER REMEMBER MY 18TH.

DONT ARGUE CAUSE THIS TIME ROUND I'M 500% SURE IM DAMN RIGHT.

so sad for yuding's dog. sorry i forget his/her name. omg im a bad friend. gasps. super bad. i dont know the name and it just have to happen on my birthday. its like. suayness. sorry ): i'll spread better luck next time (:

i really hope,like what su said,for whatever shit i have to go through now,i'm so going to have good karma next year.

crap my stomach is being a bitch now.

will the day when my body is 800% co-operative come? i want to eat mac.

again. dont argue. cause i want to. so many weeks without junk food. no mac no chocolate no chicken rice no nothing. crap. ohkay. FUCK. ohkay sorry. AND NO HARRY POTTER. HOW SAD.

ohkay still,DONT BE SAD YUDING!!!!!! =|

i think i've matured. HA-HA. at least i no longer feel sad for not having presents at my bedside when i get up in the morning. DONT ARGUE. THATS THE BEST THING THAT CAN EVER HAPPEN. TSK.

im going to go mug hard for physics now (: cause II wasn't really pleasant. but it didn't really stink either. everything is going to end soon. man,its fast.

oh and. on a last note,shang piao ah bei you is damn tok-kong. JJANG!

2010-11-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

please understand that i have my reasons for saying that. not that i'm petty and am trying to get back at you. tsk.

2010-11-16T14:11:00.002+08:00

im almost done. and. what a sad 18th birthday. not because of physics paper. i cant even go anyway. its like self-quarantined at home. dear rashes,please disappear by thursday? ohkay i'll be nice. friday? so i can see doctor on saturday and go to school on monday for paper instead of seab.

seab isn't that bad. you get your own room and TWO CHAIRS and damn nice examiners. you can flip your paper as loud as you want and nobody will tsk you. you get to just do your paper in peace without any peer pressure of any sort. and when you finish your paper,you can seriously heck it cause nobody is going to discuss about the paper with you. yay. but i still like it that. its like. i'm the world. 4 more papers to go. physics. please. i'll study hard after this. just please. give me at least a B? i love you physics,no matter how many times you put me down.

2010-11-08T16:33:00.001+08:00

ohkay just a quick one. cause i saw sylvia's,aka edMUND's wife,tags and i kind of browse through my blog entries and i came upon '78 days to A's'

fuck cause i'm in -1 days now ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

err what is geography again?! ahahahhahahahahah! ohkay sorry.

2010-09-26T16:47:00.003+08:00

i love you guys. please stay like this 10 years later,20 years later,30 years later,until the day i die,i want you at my funeral ohkay. dont die before me (:

2010-09-16T15:59:00.003+08:00

resolution: rush down to kino to get myself a korean dictionary and start studying it seriously cause i want to be someone who can speaks a few languages and since i've already spent $220 on lessons,i should make sure that money didn't go to waste. yes.

2010-09-14T19:41:00.004+08:00

by choosing to go to a poly,you're already smarter than me. i'm not saying poly is easy. its just that a diploma is worth so much more than a mere A'level certificate which is useless. why work so hard for something useless?! beats me. omg i hate studying. seriously. why did i take physics and how the fuck did i score so well in O's!? wrong indicators in life. argh.

thanks ann (: that's why i love my ytss friends. they understand,say the right things at the right time,never make false assumptions of you,constantly urge you to move on,never hesitating to give you a helping hand,and always stay by your side no matter what happens.

life is harsh. seriously. i don't want to disappoint but can i meet those expectations? i don't know. time will tell.

2010-09-12T13:55:00.004+08:00

exactly. 'friends' is just a word. a word with many different interpretations and understandings. ohkay i can't continue with this chim way of writing. i just happen to think about all the wonderful people i met in life so far randomly last night when i was trying to get to sleep. minus those not so wonderful people who eventually didn't become friends. friends,i suppose,are people who you can turn to. friends willing to listen,friends willing to stand back and provide that support. friends tell you your flaws,your mistakes,forgive you but never forgets. is there really such a thing as forever? the fact that i still remember the very first thing you said when we met,i guess it really has a big impact on me. on my birthday,i don't think its very nice of you to say certain things. cause,hello,it's my birthday! can't i get a break?! in front of so many people?! no,i really don't like that. treasure your friends before they're gone. cause it's fate that brings you together and destiny that makes you friends. ohkay does that make any sense. so i just want to say

I LOVE YOU

to all my friends who is reading or is not reading this. cause i don't think you have to say it out loud to show that the love's there,existing and growing strong. are must we? i don't know. my life is full of uncertainties.

money is never a good indicator of friendships. or relationships with people generally.

i was contemplating whether to put this as private but i guess by the time anybody notices,it may be well,so long later. i don't want this to spark off any misunderstandings but i just wanted to put it off my mind cause it gets frustrating and we should all move on in life. i shall just say that i do this because i didn't have the courage to confront all these wonderful people. so this kind of contradicts with what i say earlier but see,my life is full of uncertainties. i love you for who you are and all i just hope for is a return of an equivalent love.

ps. i want to go to korea,taiwan,japan(maybe),thailand,bali,batam,cambodia,vietnam and universal studios. there's just so many things i want to do after a'levels. like prawn fishing,catching the sunrise,going for a holiday,taking a plane for the first time of my life,and a chalet after so many years without one. i want to go out with my beloved fellow squashers. anywhere. and i really want to go clubbing once. for the exposure,for the experience. oh and super show. and just hiding in a cave with my computer,catching up on all the korean shows which i think will be alot cause i think i'm going into hiatus soon.

there's this confidence i have which i don't feel very secure about. i don't know where this confidence comes from. so i should just place a strong belief in it that all confidence is build on something.

2010-09-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

this is so weird. i've been getting weird dreams lately. like how i was going to move house to somewhere near my old house and i messaged yuding about it. which seems so real! i was wondering why she didn't reply me cause i was really excited. and just this morning. or yesterday,i dreamt about.. i can't recall. just weird stuffs. erm. weird.

2010-09-09T21:37:00.003+08:00

i hereby make a promise to seriously start blogging after my exams. though i don't really know who exactly is the owner of the other hand,i'll just blog it for the sake of cheap humour in the years to come.

2010-09-09T21:36:00.001+08:00

i think the blog really tells about the owner.

my blog has some serious mood swing issue.

erm.

2010-09-09T18:09:00.006+08:00

don't try so hard to get me to say it. cause why would i if i don't look at it in that manner/from that perspective?! tsk. why would anyone! haiyoo.

is this the last lap? erm. i'll rather look at it as the second last lap (:

2NE1's 박수 쳐 MV is the next awesome shit and i'm elated that they're owning the charts. like seriously pawning.

LET'S PLAY! AFTER A'S!!!

WHAT HAPPENED TO MAKNAE!!? BUT STILL,LOVING IT. GAH.

talk about motivations to study (:

2010-09-07T17:16:00.001+08:00

all in the name of cheap humour. ahahhahahahha -.-

2010-09-06T18:44:00.004+08:00

oh my life. is so. incomplete. until i meet you (:

youtube@YGLadies2

2010-09-06T18:41:00.002+08:00

ooh i love how facebook serves so many functions. making new friends,giving instant live feeds of your boring life,making friends with shuaiges,playing games,many things + confronting your friends. woahhh. amazing (: and the whole world (maybe just your minute group of friends) can see everything. i like it actually. straight-forward,to the point,nice.

2010-09-05T22:12:00.003+08:00

oh you're so fine (:

just. random.

2010-08-22T16:51:00.002+08:00

a person like him who accelerates the death of my mother earth deserves no place on this little planet. or anywhere else in the solar system. just get out of our universe bastard.

2010-08-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

goodness. getting disgusting here.

78days to BIG A'S.

2 years ago,it was the countdown to big O's. i hope i get to countdown for my university graduation.

i need to work harder.

DEAR RUOHAN,please get that steam back like now. its 1 year and 8 months already. your battery is recharged. the papers are expensive and you can't afford to do badly. both financial wise and err university-wise. i don't feel that urgent need to mug and forgo the internet,the tv and kpop. crap. thats not supposed to be the case. less than 3 months away. c'mon ruohan,c'mon! i beg you please?! ):

2010-07-27T02:05:00.004+08:00

DO YOUR PART FOR THE ENVIRONMENT! ENOUGH OF TALKING ABOUT HOW PEOPLE ARE ALL TALKS BUT NO SHOW IN YOUR BLARDY GP ESSAYS WHEN YOU AREN'T DOING ANYTHING GREAT EITHER! I JUST MADE A PLEDGE ON PLASTIKI.COM! GO DO IT!

ohkay actually by pledging i don't really do anything but at least i'm advertising (:

just thought the pictures were colourful and nice and meaningful so more people should look at it cause some people took the time and effort to brainstorm for this and finally turn it into a picture.

RETHINK - because each cotton bud we use for 30 seconds will be on earth infinitely!

like. wow.

not that i'm like a celebrity blogger where many nothing-better-to-do-in-life people reads my blog but still. for those lucky souls who happen to chance upon my mighty awesome dying but yet reviving blog (:

2010-07-20T23:35:00.003+08:00

Youtube@KyuleeKPOPMV

onew )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))): what happened to your hair. oh why.

tomorrow is hell.

2010-07-18T01:41:00.001+08:00

looked through my facebook pictures. and all that came up was 'ooh that was awkward. oooh that too.' ohgod. facebook = awkward moments.

2010-07-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

i beg to differ.

2010-07-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

WHOOHOOOOOOOOO! life's great! cause i just drank starbucks that day! happy! and really happy! couldn't pronouce grande still! so i said the 'medium' one! embarrassing but got it in the end. saw ms goh and she said to call her. HAHA HAPPY WAITING MS GOH! she looks so happy now*thinks about the time when she threw my maths workbook* erm. come to think of it. WALAO MS GOH! FOR WHAT! tsk! and also how she and mrs lui gave me $50 to get new greeny school uniforms. *touched*

just watched eclipse! and yeah! it sucks! hahaa! didn't have any expectations at all. maybe even negative expectations. so maybe it turned out ohkay. credit to su. heh thanks for the warning/precaution.

downloaded the cove. may turn anti-dolphin killing/consumption some day. if i transformed,you know why. maybe you don't want to know. but just. you know why.

i want to fly to manhattan and never come back. no special reason. the name just pop up.

2010-07-15T20:54:00.001+08:00

i want to cry out loud. for help. for peace. for yoga.

2010-07-11T17:47:00.000+08:00

2010-07-07T21:57:00.000+08:00

this year's ndp song is so not sing-alongable.

2010-07-06T19:11:00.001+08:00

man i want to go for Incheon Korean Music Wave 2010! the list is just.. awesome! ):

2010-07-04T15:57:00.005+08:00

윤두준리다! 생을죽하함니다! 아ㅏㅏ 멋있다!

2010-07-04T15:53:00.002+08:00

some people tries too hard to impress with words typing in a fashion people can't really comprehend what you're trying to put across and just throwing in all the bombastic words to make it look priceless.

ohgod can you get what i'm trying to say!? yes right. cause there's too many of these people around. tsk. and they type more disgustingly then i do.

just. don't 
you think some people tries too hard? 

anyway had class outing yesterday at eighteen chefs. the food not really that awesome now =\ and i think aloy doesn't work there anymore. cause its like a chinese restaurant now. gah. didn't get to talk to alot of people. had to leave early. to watch soccer. sad! messi ): nice to talk to people like mariah and steph and people again! NO NOT YOU SAM IF YOU HAPPENED TO READ CAUSE WE DIDN'T TALK. TSK. TTM. &PHILINA. &STUPID CHIAXING. &SYLVIA! &i miss seeing bimbo! i still have the video where she went to the toilet saw something like a comb with hair and was totally grossed out. kaka. funnnny.

sometimes its not just the want but the ability to =\

2010-07-02T21:00:00.006+08:00

pretty? its like that kind of 'there's always a dark stage of life before hope and happiness miraculously appear' photo. hee. now i'm so proud of myself. such a pretty picture.

no i wasn't stalking these people. thunder was roaring and stuff but they were still painting. and they distracted me from mugging for midyears cause painting a block looks so much more funner than mugging and especially so when i'm sitting on my comfortable chair not that shaky elevator thing O.O

you know what are those?! aww so smart.

things to note:

1) there's just too many things to know/memorise in 2years. my memory space is like..

2) global warming. TSK.

3) life sucks. for now. cause i just screwed my whole paper1 for physics. yeahyeah paper1 big deal. right.

and i swear i really did ____. its one of those times when you look at the paper and go errrrr and feel like you've never studied physics your whole entire life ): i really really don't want that to happen during a's. please no. not even prelims. so in this 9weeks to prelims,i'm going to mug. not mugmug but mug. on a daily basis. i've got enough scares. cannot afford to flunk a's.

한아! 화이팅! 당신이 알아! ((:

i want to smile widely next year februrary. or maybe march. just. widely. like never before (:

2010-06-29T13:48:00.001+08:00

OHKAY! 1.5 DOWN! AND ERR ALOT MORE TO GO! GODDDDD. SAW MOTHERS PICKING UP THEIR CHILDREN FROM PAP. SO WE SHOULD JUST ABANDON THE BOOKS AND LETS BE MOTHERS!

2010-06-23T14:33:00.005+08:00

if you haven't watch this,go watch it! (:

its pouring now (: perfect time to sleep but yet can't ):

2010-06-22T17:44:00.002+08:00

김희철! love his weirdness. no? haha yes.

2010-06-22T03:39:00.002+08:00

overhead this mom talking to her daughter..

"don't you think you've been spending alot of money lately? you don't sense it? everything also ask me for money. ask money for cigarettes, for everything.."

and i can't hear what they're saying anymore but what's wrong with parents these days?! instead of reprimanding her for asking you for money to smoke her life away,shouldn't you be telling her off for even smoking? and one day if she gets lung cancer who's going to be responsible?! the mother who didn't tell her off for smoking or the mother who gave her money to continue her addiction?

2010-06-20T20:33:00.002+08:00

ohkay i'm not a mega ukiss fan. but. this is funny 재밌다! ㅎㅎㅎ

2010-06-19T02:32:00.000+08:00

2010-06-18T14:16:00.000+08:00

can anybody ever be always right? *shakes head*

2010-06-17T23:17:00.004+08:00

ohkay. i need to study (: anybody feeling me yo? ): boring life. must mug for four and a half hours. and to accomplish that. i must start now. MUST. go ruohan go. ohkay bye world. &i think i'm crazy.

i've slept for many months waiting for my beasts to come!! couldnt even wake up (w/o my beasts) to go buy the tickets!! ㅋㅋㅋ

omg. wts. haha must have gone crazy. the love for beast.

2010-06-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

and when i hit bull's eye,'shut up la' heh. the ugly truth of life.

2010-06-10T03:50:00.001+08:00

who says i sleep late? i'm sleeping really early! probably earlier than anybody.

2010-06-09T17:34:00.000+08:00

xiao xiao bing is so ______. aww. wants to have 8 kids now. keke.

2010-06-09T00:22:00.001+08:00

ohkay shit. sudden thought. will i become like rar one day? nah ohkay i should get a grip on myself and talk about my life. like my daily boring life. like how i wanted to start doing work at 1500 and only ended doing them like 0000. joke. did some work just now. tsk. but theres too much korean element in my life right now and i need to reduce it. like now. and urgently.

watching lady gaga alejandro is like watching a porn video *gasps*

2010-06-08T20:54:00.004+08:00

youtube@youlikeitnassty

youtube@Rice Fragrance

2010-06-08T19:11:00.001+08:00

ohkay the reason why there's less of bigbang than beast is just merely because i happen to come across alot of beast icons. tsk. just wait. for about half a year. you'll see (:

2010-06-08T19:07:00.002+08:00

LOVE IT?! man you're not supposed to =\

should stop. not giving proper credits. like again. but. gah.

if i have the time,i should find some icons for ft island/shinee/2ne1/mblaq.. oh so many more. heehee. i'm such a happy fangirl now.

aww. cute.

2010-06-08T03:49:00.003+08:00

this is daebak.

oh and this

ah cute~!

2010-06-08T03:15:00.001+08:00

cute? totally (: yoseob should be a girl and they can live in far far away happily ever after. hee.

2010-06-03T21:36:00.002+08:00

OMG NINJA ASSASSIN IS SUCH A GORY SHOW. ITS ONLY LIKE 5MINS 45SECS AND I'VE SEEN 3 HEADS FLYING OFF. OMG. OMGOMGOMGOMG. CAN MY WEAK HEART TAKE THIS. OH-MY-GOOOOOOOOD.

woke up at 0700 today just to go jogging. crazy? yeah,i think so too. must be. thought back to the days when i went to macritchie. still can remember my pleas and prayers hoping it'll rain or something. but see whats happening?!!? I WOKE UP AT 0700 JUST TO RUN!!! man. people change.

2010-06-01T22:59:00.003+08:00

gah. shucks. just went for adidas sundown marathon volunteering. guess people just can't get the best of both worlds. because of some blacksheeps,the entire crew of people trying their best to deliver the best that they can ever afford is being discredited. there's seriously a time and place for everything and yes that time right there,was definitely not one for jump shots when its a hell of a mess at the queues. whatever,i don't care if you bitches are not from transport. if you're told to come here and help,you jolly well help. volunteering,in the first place,doesn't operate on a all-i-care-is-myself basis. just because of people like you,we get insulted,complained and worst,SCREAMED at for something that i dare say wasn't my fault. talk about irresponsibilities. some people just need to learn. oh no. some BITCHES just need to learn.

if only we were road marshalls =\

new found phobia: buses. and more shuttle buses.

maybe they should give the volunteers another name. probably helpers or something. volunteering should be for free. no?

went jogging. should do it for like everyday in the month. when school reopens,people would think i had some eating disorder or something.

MAN I LOVE THIS. PROBABLY ONLY YUDING READS NOW. SO ITS OHKAY (:

beast is coming to singapore! excitement overflowing!

&now i know. fanBOYS can be quite scary sometimes too. erm.

should get a new ipod cover for my shabby looking ipod soon. gah.

2010-05-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

I WANT A BOYFRIEND. SET ME UP FOR A MATCHMAKING SESSION? HAHAHAHA~ SIAO.

2010-05-16T13:42:00.001+08:00

i dont think i should be snapped at for something i didnt know. must you be so fierce??! i'll appreciate it if i was told a little bit nicely. i have too many things to look out for. too many.

2010-05-13T00:00:00.003+08:00

why are people complaining when they're not at the worst,extreme end of the spectrum?! its like when you score 15/30 for a test and somebody else is complaining when she got a 28/30 just because some china asshole score 29/30 and OWNED THEM TOTALLY. where is the sensitivity to the people around you?!

2010-05-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

actually sometimes its quite good to go hiatus for awhile. nobody reads your blog anymore,so you can just say whatever you want &the person you're typing about may only just realise like a year later. maybe by then you wouldn't be even friends anymore.

humans are weird things. impossible to fathom. what exactly are friends?! are friends just the people who're willing to die for you? or are they just there to keep you company when you're sad? or are they just making use of you in order to get something done for themselves? so annoying yet so essential in life. grrr. maybe it would be better if i couldn't speak. at least i'll take longer to express myself to people who can't understand sign lauguage,&probably that is enough time for me to think twice before saying something =\

shatting: ruohan ah,you're going to offend alot of people if you continue to be so straightforward.

&yes. thats so true. but sometimes things are just blurted out &sometimes i really don't mean to. &just some other times i just say things without meaning it. but do people understand? doubt so.

f* you,you bastard. you're not that good anyway so why are you criticising everybody else?! its not like your Mr Popular in aj or something. its really annoying if you don't know. &if you continue like that,you're not going to go very far. just,know your limits. not the whole world is kj. tsk.

the weather is so hot these days. perspiring like mad.

ohkay life sucks but since its passing so quickly,i should just appreciate the more pretty side of life.

ps. really want to start korean class again =\

2010-05-05T00:19:00.001+08:00

now that i think back,i demand for some credits for my work. tsk. its not like i did nothing,so why did i feel so bad all this time?! TSK.

2010-04-21T21:56:00.002+08:00

ah sometimes its really sad how people can be so selfish. why is reality always so cruel? =\

if you don't wish to help the people around you,then why not quit school,and do home-schooling instead? you can be as selfish as you want,and as you can be. who cares about you not being able to socialise? being selfish in an environment where you can socialise with many doesn't bring you too far either.

i'm really sorry to the woman whom i stepped on accidentally. i mean its my fault yes,for stepping on her but i'm really sorry! i really really didn't see her leg there! and so i apologised. once and again and she just stare at me! sometimes don't you feel the elderly is just taking things for granted? just sometimes.

so happy RJ won HCI,not because i think HCI sucks or whatsoever,but i really want to see AC get thrashed. hopefully it's like 11-0,3-0.5-0 (: and even more hopefully,that will show them that their attempt to get into finals are successful but stupid. i would rather finish off as 3rd or 4th than get thrashed by somebody again in front of a big audience.

sometimes the true self of somebody can get really ugly. which is a wee bit sad.

and audrey plaited my hair today! SHE TRANSFORMED ME INTO A SHU NU! (:

2010-04-19T22:47:00.001+08:00

IF JINGKAI IS SPAMMING ME HERE,I'M GOING TO LET THIS BLOG DIE ONCE AGAIN.

NOT LIKE ITS VERY ALIVE AT THE MOMENT,BUT YOU KNOW *THREATS*

2010-04-17T00:45:00.002+08:00

oh its so hard keeping a blog alive =\ thought i got back the enthusiasm. but ah,maybe not. too many things going on. super disappointed with myself today. it was like might as well say i didnt even play. omg. and i was so confident going about how since this is the last,its ohkay to lose,but i really dont want to regret just because i didnt try my hardest. rar. the feeling sucks. dont know when i'll ever get a chance to enter a squash competition again. maybe never again in my life. and i just have to,HAVE TO,waste it. man. i suck. big time =\

2010-02-20T15:15:00.003+08:00

WAH HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUDING!

셍을족하해!

GLAD THAT YOU HAVE A BLAST BLAST BLAST BLAST BLAST EPIC BIRTHDAY! WHOO! AWESOME FRIENDS. PLEASE DONT MAKE OURS ANY MORE EPIC THAN IT ALREADY IS CAUSE IF NOT,WE WILL HAVE TROUBLE PLANNING FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY. OHKAY ENJOY!

i'm going hiatus again. thats bad. anyway J1s are here. erm. quite weird. will post the videos later on facebook.

should have took pictures with yuding just now,early in the morning,like 0001.

and gah! i hate houseflies. i wanted so badly to drink bubble tea since i got tempted since su mentioned it yesterday. so i wanted to get down at THAT busstop to go buy. BUT THEN,there was this housefly hanging out around in the bus so i was just wondering how the world is liked to them. cause they said its like alot of tv screens.

so i was thinking how it would be like for a housefly to look directly at another housefly. wouldn't that be too dizzy? like too confused? no? how sad? erm ohkay. so i was thinking thinking AND I MISS MY STOP! OH I LOVE HOUSEFLIES ):

been watching alot of shows lately. like hello baby! ah onew is ____. AHH! and 강심장! and mblaq 떴다! 그녀! and alot of 2oneday videos! AND MAKNAE REBELLION! how to study! 어떡?헤!? haha is it like that? i don't know. hope that its right. 80% certain that it's wrong. erm. it's probably wrong then.

seriously,when i was typing,my mind was flooded with things to say. but now. you know. i forgot. like. everything. BYE.

2010-01-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

gah. happy. added new songs. and decided to start with lady gaga (: how sweeeet. wanted to re-arrange the songs in alphabetical order,WHICH I DID,but the stupid thing doesn't let me save. how sad.

2010-01-28T22:49:00.002+08:00

AH GO-GO-GOOOOOOOOOOOO~ (in CL's way). just here to peek-a-boo. tomorrow's cca bazaar or showcase or whatever you call it la. THAT MEANS HOT JUNIORS COMING TO SQUASH COURT! if they are even hot,or if they want to,OR IF THEY EVEN KNOW HOW TO GET THERE.

note to self:

1 - please bring thick scotch tape tomorrow - I KNOW YOU CAN BUY BUT IF I HAVE TO PAY 10CENTS FOR A NEW ROLL,I'LL START KILLING. I SWEAR.

2 - fill up your factbook. its like major emergency.

3 - oh and file your gp file.

2010-01-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

i just want to live my last year in aj as peaceful and as hardworking and as low-profile as i can make it possible. so why are you making it so hard for me?

ps. not that i'm high profile,but you know,just super super duper duper lowlowlow-profile until nobody knows i exist that kind?

pps. stop it.

2010-01-26T22:14:00.002+08:00

credits: 21evo.com

i think i'm still not doing the credits thing right. its just. so confusing.

the china couple made my day yesterday. it was all i could do to stop myself from bursting out into like roars and waves and tsunamis of laughter.

there's heats today. SO PROUD OF MUSHROOM. HAHA OHKAY AND MAYBE CHINA-LOOKALIKE SINCE HE RAN AND THROW AND RAN AND THROW. FINE. STOP THE KAP-KAP. TSKKKKKKKKK~

shag. really. ohmygod. i don't want to go to school tomorrow!

somehow i'm looking forward to thursday and somewhat hoping it will never ever come =\ J1s ARE COMING ALREADY! WHAT IF THERES LIKE HOTHOT PEOPLE WHO CAME!?!??!?!? maybe the mayflower secondary school boy? haha XD and then,there's the terror. this week is nightmare. it's like you run,and run and run. i reckon if anyone ask me, "whats one word you can use to describe your two years here in AJC?" my answer would be,hands-down: RUN. ohoh the joy -.-

ohkay i'm shagged so bye. 안녕 to whoevers still reading my already-revived-but-hardly-anybody-knows ONLINE JOURNAL.

ㅋㅋㅋㅋ~

2010-01-24T12:45:00.003+08:00

WAH! DO YOU SEE WHAT I SEE!? A SUPERSTAR IN THE MAKING! HE'S GOING TO TAKE THE MUSIC INDUSTRY IN STORMS! BY STORMS! WHATEVER!

2010-01-22T20:54:00.004+08:00

AH! SEE MY COLLECTION OF SOCKS! CHEAP,NICE,PRETTY,SOME RATHER EXPENSIVE,CHIO,HOT,대박,HANDSOME,VERY HOT SOCKS! AH! i should buy daesung and taeyang. soon (: and hongki? and maybe shindong. bwaahah~

so i was having fun arranging the socks so i can like take a nice picture. then i saw this!

OH SEE THIS CUTE THING!? it was dangling out of my brother's bag. and so. i kop. you know. KOP. and have lots of fun with it. giagiagia~

*dangles*

*dangles some more*

and i decided to have MORE fun by having my orange dangly friend play hide&seek among idols! aww,what a lucky dangly friend =\

and and! i got so obsess i took jiyoung and CL together. how nice if they are together. HORH? they children will be like the next HIPHOP DAWG YOYO~

then i got even MORE obsess,so i took out everything of bigbang that i have! AH! AND THATS NOT EVERYTHING! YET! THERES STILL MOUNTAINS AND HILLS AND OCEANS OF THEM! *jumps for joy!*

OH AND THIS (: NICE RIGHT? not the official one but still thankful.

ps. took that in the toilet. heh XD

gah. i really wanted to watch the china-related video during GP. really really want to.

just now on my way home,some mayflower secondary schoolboys board the bus and i think they just finish training for soccer or badminton or something cause they were smelling themselves like everywhere o.O why the self-conscious then? should have done it in school -.- gah so anyway,one of them came and sit at the empty seat beside me,and i think he got sososososososososososoosososososososososososososo tired he feel asleep. pendulum style. you know those shake left shake right,putting the people around in a 99.9% potential dangerous situation? yes that kind. and he was happily oscillating and BANG! ouch -.-

BUT THAT BOY WAS QUITE CUTE SO ITS OHKAY LA. i think he was really really embarrass but I WAS TOO SINCE I KIND OF SAW IT COMING BUT DIDN'T TRY TO DO ANYTHING TO STOP IT - ah but on second thought,what can i do?! i was more on worrying how to wake that sososososososososososoosososososososososososososo tired boy so i can alight -.- SO HE KIND OF TURN AND LOOK AT ME IN A VERY APOLOGETIC FACE,SO I SHOULD HAVE SMILED AT HIM OR SOMETHING. BUT WALAO,I WAS FEELING AWKWARD. ITS LIKE HEAD BUMP. TSK.

wonder what the people behind was thinking of. i would have burst out laughing. raarr. too busy feeling awkward.

ohkay this is too long for anyone's interest. GOODBYE.

2010-01-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

heh. to keep this alive,brief overview. this week is just one word: shagged. make it 2: dead beat. make it 3? want to die.

had open house that day,got our new awesome very beautiful authentic squash shirts! (:

i think this is drawn by sir audrey. very very nice. wanted to put the ball at the ball on the shirt. but aww,my hand is long but just not long enough =\

and then these 2 people came and say we need to do a video to be shown on cca bazaar and dionne decided to ji chen elizabeth's role as camwhore,so we say: LETS TAKE A SQUASH PHOTO! and so we did (:

and the girls ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

so i was eating lunch one day after school at 1515,and i thought,AH! SURE HUNGRY ONE LATER. cause training only starts at like 1700. how sad. so i went to stall 1,then i see see touch touch. then AH! SEE THAT COOL THING!

ITS A SQUASH BEAR! O.O

i showed it to people! everyone actually! and wenya says the one on the right looks like the spinny-floating insect thing on pandora. the one that spins when you touch and the naked body hangs awkwardly in the air. ah. AND EOM SAID I LIED TO HIM CAUSE THATS TENNIS! C'MON LA! ITS SKINNY AND LONG ENOUGH TO BE SQUASH (:

happy people. bad banner-hanger. the banner dropped like,after 1 day XD

RUOHAN'S SHOT.

VIVIAN'S SHOT.

WHOSE NICER?!?!?!?!?

MINE RIGHT?!?! RAARRR!

2010-01-14T23:15:00.003+08:00

the orange light at the squash chalet! I DIDN'T TAKE THIS AT THIS TIME BECAUSE OF THE UNGLAM WOMAN ON THE TEEVEE. SERIOUS. NO KIDDING.

AND I THOUGHT THE ORANGE LIGHT WAS KIND OF PRETTY BUT TOO STRIKING? AND TOO CHEAPSKATE. ITS LIKE ORANGE-PLASTIC-PASTE-OVER. raarr.

maybe a little too young for makeup? what's the rush yo!?

american idol is funny.

and i should start studying.

gosh. feels like sleeping already.

i'm really sorry for dropping my ezlink card on the escalator yesterday,so you don't really have to give me THAT look. grrr.

i'm kind of excited. it's like WOW! NEW J1S ARE COMING! but that means lesser space )))):

fitness test is coming up! i really really don't want to fail ):

EOM. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRR!

2010-01-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAH I CAN ONLY LAUGH AT YOUR FACE.

2010-01-08T03:26:00.004+08:00

is it just me or do you also see like 소녀시대 and 에프엑스 and this and that on top of just f.cuz and what ze:a? child of empire? ah,so confusing for my aging brain.

ah and i think if i were to choose,GO ZE:A/CHILD OF EMPIRE! man,there's just too many f.cuz styles. ZE:A is like a super junior with missing members.

2010-01-06T17:11:00.004+08:00

ohkay i'm on ecstasy.

ㄷ샤ㅐㅘㅡㅊ먀ㅐㅗㄱㅁ재ㅔㄱㅈㄷ소먀ㅐㄱ메ㅡㅗㅔㅑㅈ독햐ㅜㄴㅊ느츠ㅜㅐㅑㄷㅅ베재ㅓ나ㅣ횬아ㅣ!!

YES! I CAN FINALLY TYPE KOREANNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!

안 녕하새요!

basic but i TYPED that! no more ctrl c + ctrl v! YAY! the joy.

- 요섭오빠, 생일 축하해!

- 너무 너무 사랑함니다!

- is this betrayal to bigbang?

-.-

- just wanted to

show off the very few,

limited korean words

i know.

pardon.

2010-01-05T18:13:00.002+08:00

DAMN CHIO HORH?!?!?!?!?!

credits: bigbangkorean.wordpress

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! *drools*

credits: allkpop

thundara! WE LOVE GIRAFFES!

this makes me go: AWWWWW~

2010-01-02T20:23:00.005+08:00

an anyone tell me why hyun ah is in? is that even how you spell her name?

MY YOSEOB! ):

2010-01-01T22:31:00.004+08:00

ohmygod. this is nice. they are mocking China's english. haha what a joke. ANYWAY HAPPY 2010! ITS 2 MORE YEARS TO DOOMSDAY! HOW SAD. did you see the fireworks like around the world in 80 days? it's damn very nice! did you see the effing effel tower? so very chio! and i countdown in malaysia,pontian watching channel 8 show. walao. last stupid decision in 2009. its more like a drama-series-promotion-plus-fann-wong-marriage-discussion show. should have watched channel 5. the people there so on! it's like you feel so jealous of them. gawk. the fireworks! there's some reeeeeeeeeeeally really nice ones. looks like ying huo cong. firefly? yes firefly.

ohgod,i just hope this year will successfully be a hardworking year for me (: pretty please ruohan? be hardworking? 고마워요 (:

2009-12-29T02:04:00.003+08:00

decided to do something weird once in awhile. love onew.

credits: candiixoxo1ly

2009-12-28T22:07:00.005+08:00

superposition thermal physics ideal gas. for xinjuan. needed to write it down somewhere but couldn't. decided to make good use of technology and save more treees. feeble attempt. but at least its something to start off with. and i saw this. and decided to kop. its like joy to the world.

err. click to view? why is it so blardy small anyway? tried to make it bigger by using paint. obviously it didn't work.

oh what a centre-parting. she is a little rascal. was talking to her that day on the phone. she just got all excited when i asked her what she was doing and shouted that she was driving and i should stop bothering her. and she hung up. what a little rascal.

2009-12-28T15:49:00.003+08:00

ooh ahlians' blogs are coming back to my life *sparkle sparkle* i'm kind of happy,in a jumpy way,when i found HER blog and HERS and HEEEEEEERS. ooh the cheap entertainment of my boring homework-filled days. tsk. what a good illustration of an ahlian =\

when i googled for 'ah lian cartoon' since i can't use HER picture or HERS or HEEEEEEEERS,i don't want to tiok from them. kena takan? honggan? oh whatever. so i was googling and some weird giraffe of a mother posted,like in the name of her son/daughter,and she was going on about something like "..ariel looks like an ah lian.." so i went ooh,how can it be?! ariel is one hot mermaid man!

if i have the chance,i will rob the bank,probably POSB cause its blue and buy a big house and a big plane and hot gigolos and a swimming pool,maybe a racing bike,and 300 trishaws. i will fly to korea and buy another house by the seaside so when another tsunami hit (touchwood),i will perish in the waves. ooh how nice. cooling,and the probability of anyone finding you and see the miserable/ugly death you have is really low. rare. hiatus. just want to type that H-word. makes me sound profound. and i will buy all of bigbang albums and be a real official VIP in their second official fanclub. oh and i will buy bigbang sneakers for my gigolos. how nice. that is,if i didn't get caught.

OOH SO MUCH FOR DREAM BIG.

2009-12-28T03:26:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELLOW RP!

생일축하합니다!

just for you!

2009-12-28T03:21:00.002+08:00

SHIT MY HOLY MAMA. I SHOULD BE SLEEPING NOW OR I'LL BE LATE TOMORROW BUT I COULDN'T CAUSE I SLEPT AT 0400 YESTERDAY AND WOKE UP AT LIKE ONLY 1330.

ooh its been long. we really need to..

again sometimes soon. before school re-opens please? i promise to steal money from my piggy bank O.O

2009-12-28T00:02:00.003+08:00

IS THIS NICE IS THIS NICE?

AWW~

2009-12-27T23:57:00.003+08:00

OH YES I DID IT! AFTER MANY TRIES! I DON'T EVEN WANT TO LOOK AT MY CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK! IT'S SO SCARILY SCARY! I FELT SO HAPPY WHEN I WOKE UP AND SAW MONEY BESIDE MY HEAD. OH THE JOY. BYEEEE~

2009-12-26T16:52:00.000+08:00

WALAO I'M ONLY INACTIVE FOR 4 MONTHS WHAT. WHY DOES IT FEELS LIKE 4 YEARS. MAYBE I'VE ALREADY BECOME A VAMPIRE? KEKEKE~

2009-12-26T16:46:00.002+08:00

ohkay. reviving this from the dead. i should get a vampire to bite me so i can bite my blog so that it'll forever be alive for say your great-great-great-great-great-great-grandchild to read (: su is asking me to sign up for tumblr and see her tumblr and follow her or something like that but i forgot what she calls herself there =\

yuding is a stalker. big-time.

i miss you,loves. are you coming back to korea soon? stop invading japan. INVADE SINGAPORE! O.O

i don't know what came over me but i downloaded like 185 songs today. HA-HA. want any?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL THE PEOPLE! I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TRY TO REMEMBER WHO I DIDN'T WISH HERE! THE LIST MUST BE LONG!

ANYWAY ASTONS IS QUITE NICE SO MAYBE ME/YUDING/SU/MITCH/ANYBODY ELSE WHO WANTS TO COME CAN GO NEXT TIME!

2009-12-06T18:52:00.002+08:00

hello,HELLO. IS ANYBODY READING THIS? ITS BEEN SO LONG. GOODNESS.

i love malaysia for their KFC -.^

SHINE A LIGHT!

life is boring. i should start mugging again =\ oh what a sad miserable life.